circle of...what?

depression
others would say
because of they're losing;
loved one
food
will
people


if you ever felt like;
" if i could change it..."
well, that's your problem,
you're not living your life.
perfection. is what you seek. and it never ends
to me; imperfection that makes us perfect
losing makes you cherish of what you have

what would it be if the 'fun' isn't fun anymore?
then you'll back to depression.

nescafe pt. II

siang ngantok
malam ngantok
petang ngantok
nk tdo pun ngantok
5 minit lps bgn tdo..
...ngantok balek
tgk tv ngantok
tgk org ngantok
tak wat pape lg ngantok
ngantok....
ngantok...
ngantok,
nganto...
nga n t o .. . .
ng a .. .n .. . t . . .o
..n g .. a
. .
... .
.....
..
.
ZzZzzzZzZZZzzz......

ngantok, ngantok, go away
dont ever come again another day!

where are you???? (kt kedai la setan)
I need you!!!! (beli la setan)

#A

numbers; killing me
alphabet; sicken me
but this;



you tell me.

perhaps..

t
hi
ngs
wo
n
't
tur
ned
out
to
be

friend of the night

silence....

diam ke sunyi?
senyap ke bisu?
asal ko ikut aku?

is silence a sound?

trigger

the safety was off
i grabbed the man by his neck
and put the barrel on his forehead

"pray' i said.."i give u one minute"
the man held his head up
smiled at me
"kill me..pussy"
i pulled the trigger
fired twice
blood sprayed on the walls like the battle of Waterloo
i let go
the man slipped slipped from my sight

i dropped on my knees
my vision blurred by warm tears
wailing
and cried the Satanic cry
for he was my lover,the man
shot by me

nescafe

Last night I heard lepers
Flinch like birth defects
It's musk was fecal in origin
As the words dribbled off of it's chin

It said I'm lost
I'm lost
Now I'm lost

Dress the tapeworm as pet

Leave me out, with the waste.

I forgot to sell the fame

It's not going anywhere

Lets just stay here, breathing, and leave it out

you know what people say about this

no, you don't

stop complaining if it's not for real

just buy my word for god sake

Saya jual, awak beli

Saya ambil, awak beri,

saya terima awak cakap kambing biri biri.

WORST!

postal service

can it send something invisible?
desire, i would try it either way

life

i'm finally here..finally..

life brought me here..it should've had years ago..but i spent the last 5 years trying to become a scientist i forgot my inner call..

well..i'm here ain't i..

celebrating life..finally

life is..

"Life is a characteristic of organisms that exhibit certain biological processes such as chemical reactions or other events that results in a transformation."-wikipedia

oo really?..

"life is a journey full of surprises,kinda like a box of Valentine chocolates,and it should never be determined by anybody else but you.life is to be celebrated.life is to be enjoyed.life is to be lived to the fullest"-Hollywood

okay..

"life in this world is a pit stop in our journey, where we stock up on our supplies of good deeds and leave behind the bad ones..a pit stop on our way to the place He promised us.till Kingdom come"--Religion

hmm..

"life is coffee.donuts and coffee.that's it.when u're dead,that's eat.worms eat u and u become fertilisers to the earth"-Atheist

u think so?.

"life is where we live as free men.and every man dictates his own future and practices his rights without discrimination or prejudice, regardless of gender,race, or social background"-The American Dream

haha..

"Life is enjoying childhood,getting a good education,having a decent job,buy some property,marry,have kids,die old"-The Common People

is that what life is all about?

ever since i was a kid my parents told me.."u grow up,go to college,get a good job,marry a good girl,work with the government or start your own business,buy big cars and a piece of land for your house,go for the haj,have grankids.."

they never told me to die old..coz we muslims believe that God could have us called home anytime..

i know most of you believe in that too..

but yet,my vision of life has never been close as my parents see me living my future..

i dreamt of being a doctor,and help people with the UN,marry late,write books..become the prime minister..

they just dont dream big like me

but those big dreamers..most of them leave behind things i cudnt possibly leave..

i cudnt leave my parents..my family..

so what to do with life..i dunno..

better stick to wikipedia..